before :: after

So, here's the "cast" of my diary. Why? Well, frankly..Why the heck not?

Ricky= my twin brother. He's super-great..and often quite humorous. He speaks in monotone, and that trait has become a, well, a joy of our little circle of friends.

Matt=aka Matthew. My former significant other. we've been through our ups and downs. A lot of them... He's the guy I'm writing about in mostly all of the entries in 2002... but he's not "neighbor boy" from the first of my ramblings. We don't talk anymore; for many reasons, and I'd say a pretty good amount of writing in this diary has been prompted by mixed feelings of anger/sadness/happiness/confusion/indifference in regard to him. And, as of late, my enlightenments of summer seem to all deal with finding myself again after leaving a parasitic relationship and coming to terms with life on my own and how simlpy wonderful it can be. But maybe you've grasped these ups and downs throughout the entries...

Amanda= my gal-pal and endless phone conversation buddy. And so much more.

Jaimie= my silly and insane creativity buddy who also has some of the same paranoias and other nonsensical fears, and likes m&m's cookies at lunch.

Scott= my "bro"; or make-believe brother. He's a cool guy and is mucho fun to hang out with. We're pretty tight, yo.

Eric= my intellectual/spiritual buddy. We have quite interesting and significant conversations, usually quite late into the night. He is also known affectionately by me as Random Man. He also has a Random Man theme song/jingle. Aren't you so jealous?

Joe= aka Mickey. My buddy, my pal. He's super cool, super smart, and has an awesome sense of style. A great guy who is extremely fun to be around. He cares about the silly things and the important things..someone very trustworthy and close to my heart.

Jesse= my 'all star', my crush of freshman year track season. He's super cool, can always make me smile, and if you mess with him he pretends he'll beat you down (he's what, eh.. 6'4" now and 280 lbs?), but he's really like a big ol' teddy bear.

Jonathan= my other brother, he's 14 now and thinks he has the answers for everything. He wants to be a lawyer, and loves to torture me by practicing his arguing strategies at least 5 times a day, with topics ranging from who used the last of the ketchup to which one of us will be the first, and thus the bad child, to send Mom and Dad to a nursing home if they go senile. All debating aside, hehe, he is 'tres cool' and is growing into a fine young man.

Bryan= well... where to start? Our mothers were childhood best friends, and we've grown up around each other. I used to have mixed feelings about him, stemming from several events in the past that I still cannot decipher their meanings. He's the one I'm writing about in 2005 up until like, the end of April/May-ish... and possibly very late 2004. Any time I allude to "knowing someone forever" or "for 17 years", it's unquestionably him. We're cool now, and we're both going to college in Massachusetts next year. That's about it.

Wow, I just realized that I barely use proper nouns in my diary. So, odds are the above listed 'characters' will never even get mentioned! Oh well. This is one of those 'just in case' type of things...

MORE TO COME LATER, if necessary